Well . . . the time has finally come, surgery. It has been almost a year and it is finally here. This week my oldest and youngest are going under the knife. I think about this and it's crazy, we have been working toward this since before we left China. We tried to get things taken care of while we were still there but it was difficult and so we ended up deciding just to wait till we were here Once in America we had to get insurance, then find doctors, make appointments, get referrals, make more appointments, wait for those appointments, go to the appointment, schedule surgery dates, wait for the dates . . . . 5 months later, it's here!
I'm thankful to be back in America so we can get these procedures done here but MAN, it's about time!
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Monday, February 6, 2012
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
It Only Takes A Moment
As time goes on and we get more into a routine here I think less about missing China. My time is being filled with new things to do like DRIVE to the grocery store, DRIVE to go pick up my daughter from school, do a gazillion loads of laundry, clean house, potty train a 2 year old, the list is never ending. But as these things come more and more natural I find myself not thinking about the way I used to do things.
As days go by however, there will be something that triggers something inside of me and I am immediately hit with sadness and grief and a ache for China (and all that we left behind). Oh man how it hurts!! I think it hurts even more than when I would miss China almost every minute of everyday. It's almost like you take all that longing and sadness that I would feel over days and compact it into one instant. When it happens I'm not sure what to do with myself. I'm not a very emotional person, I tend to have a very steady and even personality but when I get hit head on with the bus of emotion feel like I am going to collapse and tears come rushing to my eyes. I wonder if I feel like this because as I adjust and get more comfortable here I'm scared that I'm going to forget China (and all that I love there)?
As days go by however, there will be something that triggers something inside of me and I am immediately hit with sadness and grief and a ache for China (and all that we left behind). Oh man how it hurts!! I think it hurts even more than when I would miss China almost every minute of everyday. It's almost like you take all that longing and sadness that I would feel over days and compact it into one instant. When it happens I'm not sure what to do with myself. I'm not a very emotional person, I tend to have a very steady and even personality but when I get hit head on with the bus of emotion feel like I am going to collapse and tears come rushing to my eyes. I wonder if I feel like this because as I adjust and get more comfortable here I'm scared that I'm going to forget China (and all that I love there)?
